memaafkan vs melupakan

kdg2 ade perkara yg org lain buat yg tak menyenangkan hati kita kn

maybe buat kita geram.marah.

atau yg sewaktu dengannya.

ade jugak yg org buat smpai menyebabkan kita terguris.

dan akhirnya,org tu mohon maaf atas keterlanjuran dye.

tapi depends jugak.kdg2.org yg xsedar diri tu

kita yg tak bersalah plak kne mintak maaf

sebab?

sebab taknak keadaan jadi keruh.HUHU ^_^

tapi,it's easy to say than done.

senang je nk ucap.takpe.aku maafkan ko

pasni jangan buat lagi okeh?

tapi,sejauh mana hati kita memafkan kesalahan org tu?

itu depends pada hati sendiri.

dan sejauh mana org tu sedar kita xsuke ape dye buat

itu bergantung pada diri drg sendiri.

mungkin bg org lain.it's easy to deal with this matter

tambah2 dgn org yg senang hati blh ckp lepas.

i have that attitude.tapi,dlm hati jela kan.HAHAHA =P

banyak bende yg aku suke sgt pendam.tapi sbnrnye aku xsuke sgt

org tu buat.apekan daya.

aku xnak saketkan hati siapa2.tapi masalah jugak

bila hati sendiri yang saket.geram worh! :'(

kdg2.aku ni sbb malas nak amek port.org men pijak2 plak.

how i wish.i can say it directly.kalau xsuke ape2

kan ke best mcm tu.daripada tgk dr jauh dgn hati yg saket.

aku geram.aku bengang.tapi cmne nk settlekan?

sbb tu aku kne banyak sgt pujuk diri sendiri.

come on.bende kecik pon nk besar2kan ke?

tula ayat org2 slalunye.cube kalau korg yg kne ape yg aku kne

ape korg buat? siapa xgeram?

kalau korg boleh bersabar.mmg aku salute habesla! ^_^

well.it's easy to forgive.but it's really HARD to forget.

p/s: suggestion aku pasni.jangan buat sesuatu kalau kita rase kita taknak buat

ataupun,kalau kita taknak bg sedih.

subhanallah.

i just received a call from mummy this morning.

"muyah.buat sujud syukur muyah.naseb baek muyah"

i was like.knp mak? what happen?

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weekend ni,aku balek rumah.saje.nk duduk dgn mak

entahla.dok rumah ni plak.aku xhabes2 dok mengidam pizza hut

nak mkn spagetti.alhamdulillah,before balek,aku dpt jugak mkn

ngeee ^_^

and.mase smpai kat melaka sentral.almost sume tiket balek KL full

xde vacancy langsung,which sgtlah jrg berlaku

sbb kdg2,aku balek,ade 4-5org je dlm bas.

and.aku tpakse tawaf satu MC smate2 nk carik tiket bas.

siap gadow2 ngn ayah lagi.huhuhu.ya Allah.xtawla ape jd.

ayah ckp,yg ade pon pkol 6ptg je bus.laen2 takde.

jalan punye jalan.aku g kat kaunter delima ekspress.

aku tanye jugak org tu,ade x bas g KL?

plg awal.dye kate 4.30ptg ade lagi.

just beberapa minit after that.tiket yg 4.30ptg pon habes.

mmg tinggal pkol 6ptg je.

ayah ckp,naseb baek dapat.

and.mase naek bus pon,mmg full,xde tmpt kosong langsung.

and i was thinking,what actually happen in KL smpai rmai org g sne?

and.i was told by my friend.ade konsert maher zain

plus perkahwinan angkasawan negara la kot kan.

well.tarikh smlm mmg BEST.10.10.10

tapi,pada tarikh itu jugak,aku spatotnye sgt bersyukur

it makes me wake up,dari segala kelalaian.

the bus that is just right after me.bas delima.dari melaka ke KL
yg pukul 6ptg tu.

alami kemalangan yg ngeri sgt.which.korg blh bace kat

kemalangan ngeri (bergambar)
kemalangan ngeri

bas tu bergesel ngan kete lain.pastu melambung.

dari lane mengahala utara ke arah lane menghala ke selatan.

pastu bas tu hempap kete lain.ade 2 kete.

satu terperosok bwh bas.satu lagi terbakar.

even ade satu lagi bas khidmat masyarakat pon kene.

and.almost 12 penumpang maut.sgt terok.astaghfirullahalazim.

ade yg putus tgn.ade yg pecah kepala.mcm2.

korg boleh tgk gamba dye kat bloggie tuh.

subhanallah.i just don't know what to say.

cumenye.THANKYOU ALLAH.for giving a chance to still live.

kite xkan tawu kan ape jadi pd diri kita in future.

i just hope,biarlah aku dlm keadaan yg sempurna.

husnul khatimah.insyaAllah.

kalau x,mgkin mengidam spageti tu akhir kan.

pelik jugak.smpai aku paksa gak mak ayah aku g makan

bhari2 masa kat umah.HUHUHU =_="

takpe.slagi hidup,insyaAllah,sama2 lah kita berbakti.

dan menunaikan kewajipan.

skrg ni mcm trauma plak.sgt trauma bile fikir balek.

trauma nk naek bus pon ye jugak.takot sgt ni :(

tapi,bile fikir balek,even kalau drive pon,kalau Allah da tentukan.

drive mcm mane pon,kalau ajal dah smpai

siapa yg tahu kan.

kete myvi yg terperosok tu,aku rasa,xkan dye bwk terok2.

tapi,ajal dye da smpai,meninggal jugak.

jadi,insyaAllah.sama2 doakan keselamatan diri kita,keluarga,rakan2,chekgu.

dan semua orang.

marilah kita same2 sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat semua mangsa kejadian.

semoga mereka berada di kalangan org yg beriman.

amin.

p/s: bas delima tu mmg sgt penoh.kalau mayang sari 3 seater
yg ni 4setaer.and semua tmpt full,xde kosong langsung
korg blh byg x full dye mcm mane?

komen aku thadap bas tu cume
bas tu xbrape stabil.dye xbrape selesa sgt kalau nk banding dgn bas2 yg 3seater.
tapi,kalau dah nk jadi kan.
subhanallah.and alhamdulillah,aku masih diberi peluang

dedikasi buat arwah bobo.

setelah hampir 2 bulan kau bersama kami.

akhirnye.engkau pergi jugak bobo.

aku sbg auntie,mohon maaf,andai ade terkurang dr segi jagaan kami

tak pernah walau sehari,aku tak dtg menjengukmu

aku akn berikan kau makanan,andai aku xnmpk bebola merah hijau di dlm akuarium korg

hari2.jadi,pemergianmu amat aku rasakan.

kini,hanya momo yg tinggal menemani kami

ke'busy'an ibumu pada minggu ini mungkin penyebab utama

permergian bobo.maafkan kami bobo.

kami dah buat yg terbaek! =_="

buat ibu bobo dan momo,jgn bersedih,setiap yg hidup

pasti akan kembali.

bkn salah ibu mengandung okeh =P

HEHE.xreti buat entry sedih.ngeee ^_^

tapi,siyesly,dah mcm habit plak bg bobo n momo mkn walau tnpa disuruh ibu drg

mesti jenguk! walaupun xreti bersihkan akuarium tuh.

tapi still,dari segi pemakanan mmg aku jage.

well.kalau tgk keadaan bobo,mmg dye krg aktif sket dr momo

bdn dye pon xsegemuk momo.

momo nye ekor kembang.ekor bobo kecik je.

tgk keadaan bobo yg terapung tadi,rosma jerit.

RISQ! knp ikan ni.yee.aku tawu.ssh nk terima hakikat

bobo dah xde.tapi,at least dye xsaket trok kn.

mate bobo td tersmbul.macam ade urat2.huhuhuhu.

well.kalau ikan beso blh la nk mkn kan.

ni ikan emas yg kecik.mne boleh.tapi,ish! aku mne de kejam cik kak

ade ke patot rosma ckp,kalau bobo hilang

aku org 1st dye carik.

ktorg xbuang bobo lagi.esok bru nk g tanam bobo.HUHU.

ape pon.buat bobo tersyang.may u rest in peace.

and.aku harap momo akan tros btahan dgn kami

insyaAllah.

p/s: ikan blh beranak x kalau xde pasangan? ^_^
*entry ni dibuat semalam.tp xdpt post sbb broadband da gile =_="

impossible.

saye suke lagu ini.dgr dkt radio.and recently dkt bloggie cik mar.

tapi satu je masalah.lirik bkn tgk pon.

and.mmg kalau cik risq masok pertandingn yg kat astro tu

jangan lupa lirik 

4 sure,xsempat amek rm100 pon,da kne tendang.

HEHEHEHE.

urm.keje da dtg btimbun.

and.ade 3 bende penting.i need to conduct a meeting for my anak buah

1st for logistic dptment utk incoming AMSEP Indonesia.

2nd for marketing dptment utk 1st year AMSA committee

and last,marketing for EAMSC Thailand 2011

and.it makes me headache.

sbb,xsure bile nk buat meeting.aku mmg dah sure2 xde kelas da this week

so,mmg xdpt nak balek la

sbb nk kne siapkan sume keje secepatnye.

aku pon da penat.study pon nk kne catch up jugak

tapi xpe,i know i'm strong enough! ^_^

xbleh nk maen2 sgt kan.cume kdg2,rase nk tarik dri dr 1st yr committee

sbb xrase blh bg komitmen.

plus,maybe dah nk retire dr AMSA juge.AHAHA.

jgn tanye knp.it's just a matter of personal.

maybe sbb my best partner dlm AMSA da xde twun dpn kat KCKL

and maybe sbb aku xreti nk handle AMSA dgn bdk baru

tapi,actually,kite akn meet ramai org baru kan.

entahla.i just don't know what should i do..

maybe aku akn just try utk this time aroud.if aku xrase ok.

i'll slowly retire.xpela,jd bdk diam2 pon taper kan.HEHE :P

aku yg ajak org masok AMSA.

and.mr.fakhzan.kalau ko bace post ni.thankyou sbb masok AMSA skali

ngeee ^_^

ape pon,buat yg tbaek.bkn sng nk yakinkan org.

there's so many things kne faced.nk ajak bdk malay masok mmg sgt payah

and.aku pon da give up.HUHU @_@

skrg ni bile kwn2 chinese dah amek most part of AMSA.

dah xbleh nk ajak bdk malay sgt dah.

mcm stigma.AMSA = cina, PERSIAP = malay

aiyooo....

no komen! ngeee ^_^

nobody is wrong.and nobody is right.

same2 tanye.ape yg patot dilakukan utk ubah persepsi ini?? ^_^

but,it's not IMPOSSIBLE kan utk stigma ini berakhir?

pleasee...

crying baby

huhu..when i woke up this morning

none of my housemate is in our house.i feel like totally weird.

and.it feels so terrible.like i don't know what am i doing? where am i?

i just don't know why do i feel so.

i called mummy.and mummy asked me to do my routine 1st

and so i bath,eat,washing clothes,tidy up my room which i abondoned it for 3 days.

and.after finishing all my job.

i stopped.and daydream..what should i do next?

really! i feel like i'm alone in this world.

that is why.now.i do really know,why do people can't live alone.

it's just.i wanna say i'm sorry.

sorry for crying like a little baby.

it's just i'm too scared being left alone in this house.i just don't know why

i've already get used to it.

everyday.u all walked out from the house not telling me.

bcoz,ur class started early in the morning.

but,i just don't know why.i don't know why i feel so sad today.

when i heard ur voice from my room this morning.i rushed out.

and.i get u guys.i'm babbling to u guys.how much i feel sad.

and.it feels like,heaven you know.

THANKYOU ALLAH.

and.i really don't want to be alone.don't ever leave me like that.please!

kalau.

entah.xde pape nk tulis.cume..

nk membebel.

kalau slalu.post aku mesti agak pnjg.

kali ni  pendek je kot.sbb.xtawu knp.

dan jgn tanya knp jugak.

sorry.maybe ur wasting ur time reading this post.

xde input.cume luahan seorang budak berusia 19thn je.

aku pon xtawu ape nk tulis.

cume.i need time.i need a long time soo much.

knp aku terase mase blalu dgn sgt cepat ye??

rindu.aku rindu nk bsama mereka.

tp.yes i know.it's weird.tp somehow.xpela kn ^_^

at least.i'm not that bad.

entahla.bcelaru plak otak ni.

Ya Allah.please.i do really2 need ur help.

or else.i'll fall in this deep well.

p/s: biarla ape pon yg blaku.aku akn ttp di sni.

melihat.memerhati & hanya berdoa

yg tbaek.utk sgale2nya.amin ^_^

what a day..

what a day..

it's like everything got soo mixed up today

pkol 6ptg i'm still talking with my mum+babbling+laughing xingt dunia

then suddenly..

by 7 something..i feel lonely..like i'm missing something in my life

i can say i have a beautiful life ryt now

but..somehow..there's lacking here and there :'(

and.by 8 i called my mum..

mak..i dunno why :'( i just dun have any idea..what's going on

i don't have any reason to be sad

but,seriously,i'm sad..and sooo..now i know why =_="

rosma + i decided to have our dinner at RAM's corner

since we don't have anything to cook 

(ohh..nanti kami pegi shopping brg2 mentah lagi ^_^)

but then,she wanted to go and print some stuff

mule2,aku ckp nk ikut..yela,mlm2,CHOW KIT lak tuh..

dia dok kate,dekat2..xjauh mane

suh aku g order dulu..yela pakcik2 kat RAM sgt LAMBAT bwt keje ye

then,ok,kami bpecah..

jumpe kak mira+kak zhaf+aini

sembang2..dah dkt stgh jam,rosma XBALIK2..

msg2 dah risau..LUCKY that diorang nk tlg cari

THANKS A LOT..xtaw nk bwt ape,kalau korg xde :'(

i did call,epa,sab,madi..tnye,mane rosma slalu g

sume ckp dpn fac..then kak mira call..kedai dpn fac ttp =_="

where on EARTH r u??

abg tam+mak ckp relax..doa bnyk2..slawat bnyk2..

then,after 1 HOUR++

kak mira ckp da jumpe..alhamdulillah...

tros call kak mira..nk ckp ngn rosma

(ni lagi 1 msalah..rosma nye nset habes bateri..kalau x,xdela risau sgt =_=")

bile dah smpai..rosma kene bebel @_@

so SORRY..i couldn't help being so worried..

rse sgt bersalah..rase sgt takut..

menangis plak tu td..haha..bwt malu je dgn rosma..

haha..aishhh =_="

i love you sooo much dear..please don't ever do that again..

mgkin..kesah sedih rase LONELY mse ptg td

adelah prior to this event..xtawla kn,instinct ni kdg2 blh pkai jugak =P

cume,just want to say..

MILLION THANKS to kak mira+kak zhaf+aini

thanks sgt2 carikan bdk sowg tuh..

nanti risq QUARANTINE kn dye..seminggu xkasik keluar...

hehe..

end of story..pengajarannya..

don't let somebody u love or anybody walk alone

walk together..be by their side..

and..be with them,no matter when they're happy/sad/angry...

i love u..