Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Why am i so emo?

Bloggiee..

I dont understand myself
I know i’m going to have menses in few days
Thats the main reason why i am emooing right now
But bloggieee

I felt rejected
Soo much that i feel hurt
I dont know why am i feeling this way
Unnecessary feeling kan?
Thats why i hate relationship
I hate to have this kind of feeling
I miss the time that i didnt care about other people
When i dont give a damn for others

Everytime i look into it
I know its my fault
But.. heyyy what can i do when i have this kind of feeling
I tried to cool down
Tried exercise to let out my anger and my dissatisfaction
It worked but i cant text him now
Im afraid i might burst out silly things
And make him bored with me

Reason why i feel this way
When we were texting
Suddenly he said he wanna do bla3
The first time when he said he wanna workout
Then he wanna watch movie
Then he wanna have his dinner
At first i’m okay with what he said
When its too frequent
I have this thought, am i a bored person?
I just cant accept
I feel like he dont want me to bother him
I respect his time
I dont complaint when he replied my msg late
Sometimes i feel like being KK MO make me have a lot of free time
At time like this how i wish if i choose busy life
So that i wont have to care about little things
Should i change my interest back to anaesthesia?
Looking at my friend havig sleep deprived with every other day oncall, i’m afraid to venture into hospital life
I’m afraid i wont have time for my family
Though i really love hospital life
But at this rate, i really feel like i wanna go back to hosp life..

I know miss PMS coming
I know this feeling come because of this
But yeahh girl never learn kan?
Dah cool down baru insaf later on
Tapiiiii..
Can i turn back time bloggie? 😞😞😞