Tuesday, August 16, 2016

done pediatric my love

Asslamualaikum WBT bloggieeee..

bloggieeee...
i'm doneee with paedsssss
suprisingly, i enjoyed the postingg :DD
haha! funny eyyy..

before i've entered the posting
i heards lottssaaaa bad things from everyone..
kaki biru sikit kne extend..
buat mcm ni kne extend

well.. yeah, mmg ramai kne extend..
tapiii.. for me reason for extending the people eventhough hard to digest
tapi, they have reasonss..
mcm ade sorg ho ni, truthfully, i've been working with this person
teamwork kadang2 ke laut.. suke ambil power nap
dan kdg2 aku rasa dia cm main2 gaklaa..
so, of course they will find reason to extend that fella kn

mostttt of them yg i worked with, with good attitude..
yg mmg boleh rely on kan
sume tak kne extend..
soo? what say u?
lagipun HOD skrg ckp mmg dia nk strict dengan HO
although i feel pity dgn diorg sume
tapi, for me its for their own good
sbb tu dulu masa ak kne extend masa 1st year and dr tu cakap
extend will make u better..
aku cm memula xboleh hadamm
but now i do understand.. tahnkyou DR!

and, yess.. i have another 1 day before entering medical posting
i know the posting going to be tough
and challenging as well
sebab?
sebabnye xde off dayyy.. huwaaa :((

dahla masa medical ni abg cik nak kawen
adoiilaaa.. harapnye dpt bertabah..
means AL kne divide 2.. satu utk belah pengantin pompuan
another half utk belah pengantin lelaki
and and.. raye haji of COURSE tak dp cuti :((

takpela.takpelaa...
paedss.. mungkinkah kita akan jumpa lagi?
most likelyyyy.. sebab i think i fall in love with uuu :PP
insyaAllah.. nnti mgkin dh masuk 5th posting kita decide eh ;)

 with some of my colleaguess... thankyou sumeee for such memory :DDD

 how i enjoyed my off day before entering medical..
serious sedap,,, should've tried earlier.. haha :PP
thankyou mummy&daddy teman saye gi jenjalan <3 p="">
mase oncall raye haritu.. hiksss..
bye2 gurlsss.. see u again eyyyy :DD

i am a happy HO nowww...
i really hope i will continue to succeed with another 3 postings :D
amin..
bye2 bloggiee... jumpe lagi...

Friday, June 10, 2016

Istikharah

Assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..

Well, i just dont know who am i supposed to talk to.. Since i hope to pour out my feeling here.. I hope my heart will feel at ease after that.. And the rest I'll leave it to Allah..

Few days back my maktam called my mom and asked whether i have someone at the moment..
And she said she already talked about me to someone she knew.. And that person agreed to get to know me..
She asked me personally, whether can she gave my number to him.. Well, i just replied that i am not ready yet.. But yesterday maktam said that she already gave my number to him..

I just dont know how to respond..
Bloggie.. I cant even manage my own life..
I keep on getting back late at night..
Sometimes when i promised my mom and dad i'll be back by 6pm sometimes i end up getting back late at night..
How can i give commitment to someone? Plus that person is an ustaz and a teacher..I am far from being good.. How will he handle me, the naughty me.. The bad side of me? I just feel that i am not a match.. He is wayyyy to good to be with someone like me..

But, bloggie..
I just dont know how to respond if he did contact me..
Takkan u just wanna reject right from the first moment..
My dad said if ure not ready then just tell that person..
My mom said the same.. Bcoz previously there's also my mom's friend asked her to match her son with me who works as a pilot..but since my mom knew how my working hours will be she declined because if we ever get together, how will our kids be..
But my mom din totally reject this guy because my mom said "cikgu.. Okla banyak dok rumah".. Huhu..

Bloggie.. Nk istikharah pun xboleh skrg.. Harapnye dia pon xcontact dlu awal2 ni..
Buatla solat istikharah dlu..
But to get married now, i dont think soo..
Since i have too many responsibility..
Who's going to take care of my parents??
I hope Allah will guide us to make a wise decision..
Amin!

Well then.. I'll just enjoy my 2 days off after working like crazy for 7 days.. Till we meet again bloggie..

Saturday, May 7, 2016

First post as houseman

Haiii encik blog!
Assalamualaikum WBT..
Uhuk uhuk...
Bloggiee.. Almost a year kan??
Hehe..

Well bloggie.. Now i'm almost a year old HO..
Dah masuk 3rd posting.. Pejam celik pejam celik jeee
Dah habes o&g ngan surgical..
Tapi xtauuu laa boleh survive x jd mo nanti :ppp

Bloggieee..
Tak sangka sangat..
Now i own a car.. And will own a house very very soon..
Nombor rumah? 23 nombor jalan rumah? 23 :pp
Guess what? I signed the s&p on my birthdayyy!!
I guess 23 is my lucky number..
The only problem was i dont get married at the age of 23:ppp

Dah 25 tahun dah tahun ni..
Macam2 liku liku kehidupan dah dilalui..
And yeahh i am still single till now
Sometimes i wonder how did i survive that time..
Bcoz right now i am too busy with my career and taking care of my parents
Till i have no time to think about my own future..

Pernah jugak tanya mak..
Mak kenapa yah mcm xde perasaan nak kawen?
Kawan2 sume sebok cari pasangan
Kawan2 sume sebok kawen
Kawan2 sume risau tak kawen lagi
Dan jawapan mak..
Takpe, kamu percaya Allah dah tetapkan utk kamu
Cuma jangan pejam mata dan buka hati
Masalahnya.. Hati ni mmg dah tertutup..
Dah xboleh nak terbukak langsung2
Mcm mana nak heal kan hati ye?
Teruk sangat rasanya kesan dari dulu
Bukannya baru..
Mcm dah nak dekat 5 tahun kot
Tapi yups.. It hurts even up till now..
Org tu pon agaknya dah bahagia
Aku juga yg masih begini
Masih cuba utk perbaiki diri
Masih cuba utk baikkan hati.. Jahitkan hati yg dah terkoyak rabak

Moga2 nya satu masa nanti
Satu masa nanti
Akan aku kecapi kebahagiaan aku
InsyaAllah
Buat masa ni..aku bahagia begini
Aku bahagia berbakti utk mak dan ayah..
Thankyou Allah sebab bagi aku peluang utk berbakti pada mereka

Oh ye.. Nak tahu kenapa lama aku xberblog?
Bapak kena stroke.. Kena necrotizing fascitis
Selama berbulan2 aku menggalas tugas sebagai ketua keluarga
Uruskan segala2nyaa
Bapak xboleh drive.. Bapak down.. Bapak stress
Mak pon sakit..
Tapi sekarang aku boleh berbangga
Bapak boleh bawak kereta sendiri!
Bapak berjaya atasi stress yang mendadak disebabkan sakitnya
Aku bangga menjadi one of important person
Yang bantu bapak bangkit semula
Aku gembira
Moga Allah izinkan aku bersama keduanya
Sampai satu masa nanti
Tika aku dah bersedia
I love u mom & dad
How i hope we'll meet in heaven..
InsyaAllah...



Sunday, August 16, 2015

takut..

takut sgt nak mulakan hidup baruu
what awaits in front.. apa yang akan berlaku..
entah, semuanya macam tak pasti :(

ya Allah, apa patut aku lakukan ye..
should i just sleep and forget everything..
takut nak mulakan hidup sebagai houseman..
esok.. less than 36 hours in fact!

hari isnin tu, bapak cakap nak hantarkan..
tahu bapak excited nak hantar aku pergi keje
tapi kan.. aku nak letak barang sume.. and get ready..
so, kalau anything, aku xperlu call bapak and tunggu..
susah. sebab bapak pon keje..

so, i decide nak drive to work.. tapi cuak gak, guane ni bloggie???

eksited nak keje, eksaited nak berbakti..
tapi takut.. cuakk.. sume ade
rasanya boleh kot tahan makian sume..
bukan tak pernah kena..
kadang2 bila ingat balik, jadi bahan lawak je..
teringat dlu kne stupid, worthless, atrophied brain dengan prof bilkis dulu.. haha
"dont show ur stupid faces in front of me!"

entahlaaaaa...
whatever la kan, cuma harapnya aku takkan jumpe org mcm Dr. N dekat melaka..
belagak, bajet dia hebat gile..
yg lain2 aku boleh tolerate lagi..
help me ya Allah :)

p/s: i am so restless, can't sleep, cuak gileeeeee...
hopefully it will be a good day..

MD (UKM) all over the place.. goodluck guys ^^

How i sum up my beautiful journey.. Starting with 1st year until final year, how i met rosma, ja, my study groupmate mila, gid, and my dear azura. Doing research in ssm with dr asrul, ezri, grace & kak ten. Going for spa interview on feb 2015. Then on result day, when the dean announced our result, taking picture with buddy prof shahrir & beloved prof har. Meeting people in ptm portdickson, working together with group 4. The fact that only 6 of us will be the new ho in melaka really scare me, but i'm grateful to be at home with mum&dad and to have dear komalar by my side. Alhamdulillah..

To those who will start working tomorrow, best of luck buddies! Till we meet again.. InsyaAllah ^^ all the best!

till then.. see u again bloggieeeee :D

Friday, August 14, 2015

My dear baby IRIZ

 The ALL new proton-iriz :ppp
Well. Nampak sporty kan? ^^ huhu.. I just loveeee the new lookss.. Plus drivong iriz is definitely daebak! The car is starting to keep track with my pattern of driving.. Seems like so far so good..

Anyway.. Left 2 days before i started my hoship in melaka. Dunno what to feel inside either to cry or to be calm. But true indeed, only Allah will be able to help us.

Ok. So iriz dah halau city kebelakang :pp haha.
Ok. Enough. Too tired.. Just got bsck from induksi. I'll tell u later yaaa...

Monday, August 3, 2015

IRIZ... risq

haiiii... bloggie :)

Next week dah nak masuk kerja..
so, i decided to beli kereta.. hohoho.. dunno whether i made the right choice or not @@

alhamdulillah..
but i think i made the right choice for choosing iriz 1.6 premium
well.. to be honest, it is quite impressive..
nice handling.. so worth to buy..

i hope i won't regret..
ehh. anyway, my IRIZ is citrus green..looks soooo sporty :DDDD

Friday, May 29, 2015

Belajar bertukang

Assalamualaikum wbt bloggiee

Hai hai hai :pp
Bloggie. Just wondering. Am i doing the right thing for not applying to be RA etc etc.
I'm enjoying myself playing around, kemas rumah, hias rumah bla3..
Because i feel like i wont ever get tgis kind of precious holiday anymore once i'm working.

Anyway bloggiee. I learnt wood work with daddy last week.. Since then, i've completed 4 project in total. Maybe the next one after i've finished cleaning up and tidying up my home ;)
Banyak lg bende yg fikir nak buat tapi xtau sempat tak :pppp

Here's my masterpiece..
Atas tu rak utk sabun dkt laundry. Pastu merah tu rak tupperware utk tupperware ibu yg berlambak gile kat rumah. Mcm boleh buat kilang tupperware dah :ppp the blue tu rak kasut lama pastu just paku here and there and then cat.. Jadi la rak baru :pp the last one will be my first masterpiece. Encik shoerack..

And here how all this happen.
Katil lama roboh which i am not sure when
But then after months xbalik rumah due to pro exam.. Skali balik tgk bertimbun kayu kayan..
At first xterfikir pon nak buat
Pastu tetibe bosan. Last2 blaja ngan daddy nak dismentle barang2 then design nk buat cmne kayu tu sume..

Seriously mmg susah
Utk cabut paku masa dismentle katil tu
It takes few days sbb start buat pon petang pukul 5pm cmtu
So 2 hours a day.. 
Tangan melecet, merah, luka. Memacam laa.
Tapi puas hati sangat! ^^
Masa blaja buat kayu ni. Nanges la menjerit sakit laa.. Banyak betul kenangan!
Tapi tula.. Thats how life is..
Banyak kali roboh.. Pastu hammer tangan sendiri..
Pastu rak senget laa. Memacam laa.
Tapi xkesah la. Mmg xde background pertukangan pon
Kire ok la kan aci boleh buat rak ^^

Tapi kan bloggiee.
Mak cakap. Family kitorg ni mmg xde yg ayu2 gamaknye :pp hahahha
Sume geganas. Tatawu la bloggiee
Memang rasenye xde kot org yg nak a girl like me
Ganaz.. Lasak.. Tapi hati tisu.. Haha :pp
Well. Eventhough that, i still did my housechores ok :pp
All rounded la kan. 
Pagi masak, basuh kain, kemas rumah, pastu petang buat bertukang2 ;)
Pasni nk belajar jahit plak ^^
InsyaAllah :)

Anyway bloggie..
Rase semangat sgt tgk si dia berjaya
Can i be like him too one day?
Oh Allah please do that person a favor
Do take care of him and bless his life.
Amin :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

impossible thing that i've been pray for

assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..

eh.eh.eh. dah nak dekat sebulan eh xmenulis? hehehe :PP
rasa mcm baru semalam dapat result. haihhh..
mcm xpercaya even up till now..

skrg tgh nk kne prepare resume untuk anugerah universiti.
dapat ke xdapat ke, belakang kira.
asalkan kita berusaha ^^

urmm...
last night, sembang dengan mummy
i expressed how weird my angan2 is =PPP
suprisingly, mummy cakap we never know..
then don't stop asking and believing
mcm kesah graduation ni laa...
never in my life, i would expect it..
reason? medic susah, hence, impossible nk dpt distinction 
tambah plak dah penah repeat dulu.. *ramai kot yang tak percaya*
hahaha.. weirdest dream
and because Allah give me such a beautiful gift ever
hence, aku yg xpenah nk bersyukur ni, asking for more :(((

Allah.. whatever it is.. only YOU know what's in my heart
i will accept whatever you give me..
i hope i will be a good person and thankful for everything YOU give me

p/s: u lift my heart up when the rest of me is down
u, u enchant me even when u're not around
if there's boundaries, i will try to knock them down
i'm latching on, babe, now i know what i have found

i feel we're close enough
i wanna lock in ur love
i think we're close enough
could i lock in ur love?

now i've got u in my space
i won't let go of you
got u shackled in my embrace
i'm latching on to u

i'm so encaptured, got me wrapped up in ur touch
feel so enamored, hold me tight within ur clutch
how do u do it, u got me losing every breath
what did u give me to make my heart bleed out my chest?

u lift my heart up when the rest of me is down.. yes u are!
u enchant me even when u're not around.. yes u are!
ohhhhh... this is how weird my dream is =PPP
thankyou anyway.. i wanna believe it in my own wayy..
one fine day, i'm going to be someone like you...