Wednesday, July 19, 2017
i just dont know..
did i make the right choice?
is it too impulsive?
i dont knoww..
sometimes, i just hope, i wont be too indulge in make decision
yess.. i am comfortable with him
i like his personality
i like how he differs from me, because i feel that he can control my weirdness
i have a feeling he can control the childishness in me
and i see abg tam in him
i see my abang's quality in him
knp bloggiee..why must this happen?
when bapak ask me a lot of question
i feel afraid..
true indeed, if i choose him, i have to live with him my whole life
can i accept that?
can i accept whatever his flaws?
i am far from perfect
sungguh la nk buat decision ni bukan senang kan
bkn tak solat mintak kat Allah
solat tak lupa
tapi hati mcm berbolak balik
is that a sign that i need to reconsider?
i already tell him what i need to tell
looks like he can accept that
tapi he havent tell me his..
maybe when he met me in aug later..
tapi bloggie, sungguh i paranoid towards guy..
knp susah nk decide?
Sunday, July 16, 2017
Baby bloggie, dah final postinggggg 😘😘😘
Cam xcaye dh nk habes ho ship
Sekejap je mase berlalu..
Tapi definitely tak nak repeat
Target saya nk kawen hujung tahun ni mcm entah xtercapai kot
Walaupun masih berharap ia akan jadi nyata
Tapi doesnt look like it may come true 😣
Tapi good thing!
Aim nk beli rumah ✅
Aim nak beli kereta ✅
Alhamdulillah.. just that rumah and kete dedua wane hijauuu
Hahaha, i just cannot brain myself
Xla minat hijau pon.. haha 😝
Mcm mana nk tahu ape yg patut kita buat?
Mcm mana nk pilih..
Mcm mana nk decide..
Posting pn xtau kat mana lagi..
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
i'm doneee with paedsssss
suprisingly, i enjoyed the postingg :DD
haha! funny eyyy..
before i've entered the posting
i heards lottssaaaa bad things from everyone..
kaki biru sikit kne extend..
buat mcm ni kne extend
well.. yeah, mmg ramai kne extend..
tapiii.. for me reason for extending the people eventhough hard to digest
tapi, they have reasonss..
mcm ade sorg ho ni, truthfully, i've been working with this person
teamwork kadang2 ke laut.. suke ambil power nap
dan kdg2 aku rasa dia cm main2 gaklaa..
so, of course they will find reason to extend that fella kn
mostttt of them yg i worked with, with good attitude..
yg mmg boleh rely on kan
sume tak kne extend..
soo? what say u?
lagipun HOD skrg ckp mmg dia nk strict dengan HO
although i feel pity dgn diorg sume
tapi, for me its for their own good
sbb tu dulu masa ak kne extend masa 1st year and dr tu cakap
extend will make u better..
aku cm memula xboleh hadamm
but now i do understand.. tahnkyou DR!
and, yess.. i have another 1 day before entering medical posting
i know the posting going to be tough
and challenging as well
sebabnye xde off dayyy.. huwaaa :((
dahla masa medical ni abg cik nak kawen
adoiilaaa.. harapnye dpt bertabah..
means AL kne divide 2.. satu utk belah pengantin pompuan
another half utk belah pengantin lelaki
and and.. raye haji of COURSE tak dp cuti :((
paedss.. mungkinkah kita akan jumpa lagi?
most likelyyyy.. sebab i think i fall in love with uuu :PP
insyaAllah.. nnti mgkin dh masuk 5th posting kita decide eh ;)
serious sedap,,, should've tried earlier.. haha :PP
thankyou mummy&daddy teman saye gi jenjalan <3 p="">
Friday, June 10, 2016
Assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..
Well, i just dont know who am i supposed to talk to.. Since i hope to pour out my feeling here.. I hope my heart will feel at ease after that.. And the rest I'll leave it to Allah..
Few days back my maktam called my mom and asked whether i have someone at the moment..
And she said she already talked about me to someone she knew.. And that person agreed to get to know me..
She asked me personally, whether can she gave my number to him.. Well, i just replied that i am not ready yet.. But yesterday maktam said that she already gave my number to him..
I just dont know how to respond..
Bloggie.. I cant even manage my own life..
I keep on getting back late at night..
Sometimes when i promised my mom and dad i'll be back by 6pm sometimes i end up getting back late at night..
How can i give commitment to someone? Plus that person is an ustaz and a teacher..I am far from being good.. How will he handle me, the naughty me.. The bad side of me? I just feel that i am not a match.. He is wayyyy to good to be with someone like me..
I just dont know how to respond if he did contact me..
Takkan u just wanna reject right from the first moment..
My dad said if ure not ready then just tell that person..
My mom said the same.. Bcoz previously there's also my mom's friend asked her to match her son with me who works as a pilot..but since my mom knew how my working hours will be she declined because if we ever get together, how will our kids be..
But my mom din totally reject this guy because my mom said "cikgu.. Okla banyak dok rumah".. Huhu..
Bloggie.. Nk istikharah pun xboleh skrg.. Harapnye dia pon xcontact dlu awal2 ni..
Buatla solat istikharah dlu..
But to get married now, i dont think soo..
Since i have too many responsibility..
Who's going to take care of my parents??
I hope Allah will guide us to make a wise decision..
Well then.. I'll just enjoy my 2 days off after working like crazy for 7 days.. Till we meet again bloggie..
Saturday, May 7, 2016
Bloggiee.. Almost a year kan??
Well bloggie.. Now i'm almost a year old HO..
Dah masuk 3rd posting.. Pejam celik pejam celik jeee
Dah habes o&g ngan surgical..
Tapi xtauuu laa boleh survive x jd mo nanti :ppp
Tak sangka sangat..
Now i own a car.. And will own a house very very soon..
Nombor rumah? 23 nombor jalan rumah? 23 :pp
Guess what? I signed the s&p on my birthdayyy!!
I guess 23 is my lucky number..
The only problem was i dont get married at the age of 23:ppp
Dah 25 tahun dah tahun ni..
Macam2 liku liku kehidupan dah dilalui..
And yeahh i am still single till now
Sometimes i wonder how did i survive that time..
Bcoz right now i am too busy with my career and taking care of my parents
Till i have no time to think about my own future..
Pernah jugak tanya mak..
Mak kenapa yah mcm xde perasaan nak kawen?
Kawan2 sume sebok cari pasangan
Kawan2 sume sebok kawen
Kawan2 sume risau tak kawen lagi
Dan jawapan mak..
Takpe, kamu percaya Allah dah tetapkan utk kamu
Cuma jangan pejam mata dan buka hati
Masalahnya.. Hati ni mmg dah tertutup..
Dah xboleh nak terbukak langsung2
Mcm mana nak heal kan hati ye?
Teruk sangat rasanya kesan dari dulu
Mcm dah nak dekat 5 tahun kot
Tapi yups.. It hurts even up till now..
Org tu pon agaknya dah bahagia
Aku juga yg masih begini
Masih cuba utk perbaiki diri
Masih cuba utk baikkan hati.. Jahitkan hati yg dah terkoyak rabak
Moga2 nya satu masa nanti
Satu masa nanti
Akan aku kecapi kebahagiaan aku
Buat masa ni..aku bahagia begini
Aku bahagia berbakti utk mak dan ayah..
Thankyou Allah sebab bagi aku peluang utk berbakti pada mereka
Oh ye.. Nak tahu kenapa lama aku xberblog?
Bapak kena stroke.. Kena necrotizing fascitis
Selama berbulan2 aku menggalas tugas sebagai ketua keluarga
Bapak xboleh drive.. Bapak down.. Bapak stress
Mak pon sakit..
Tapi sekarang aku boleh berbangga
Bapak boleh bawak kereta sendiri!
Bapak berjaya atasi stress yang mendadak disebabkan sakitnya
Aku bangga menjadi one of important person
Yang bantu bapak bangkit semula
Moga Allah izinkan aku bersama keduanya
Sampai satu masa nanti
Tika aku dah bersedia
I love u mom & dad
How i hope we'll meet in heaven..
Sunday, August 16, 2015
To those who will start working tomorrow, best of luck buddies! Till we meet again.. InsyaAllah ^^ all the best!
Friday, August 14, 2015
Well. Nampak sporty kan? ^^ huhu.. I just loveeee the new lookss.. Plus drivong iriz is definitely daebak! The car is starting to keep track with my pattern of driving.. Seems like so far so good..
Anyway.. Left 2 days before i started my hoship in melaka. Dunno what to feel inside either to cry or to be calm. But true indeed, only Allah will be able to help us.
Monday, August 3, 2015