Internal medicine

Assalamualaikum WBT.. Hye bloggie.it's my 3rd week of posting.this week i'm in medicine posting. Each and every posting gives different impact on me, myself, and my life. Sarkastik x bunyi.mcm everything is about me..hahaha I'm still adapting to the new environment,despite all the problem faced by me, i'm still here, standing straight, and trying to give my best serving people.do good things to people.helping people.comforting people. During o&g, what i will face is only pregnant mommy coming, either to delver, for developing symptoms of early pregnancy or admitted for complication after delivery. So, patient changes like everyday.u see her been admitted today, the next day, she's been discharged.thats how o&g treats me. While i'm in surgical posting, what i faced is people having severe pain, complication post operative procedures, and during this period, i've been seeing people having sign &symptoms of what i've learnt in pre clinical years. I got one patient having cholangitis as a complication of cholelthiasis. She also developed some complications like acute pancreatitis and she's on treatment to avoid her liver to develop complication. So, thats how surgery treat me. Seeing patient lying down, in pain, with a lot of stuffs around. The heart monitor, etc etc. Now, when i'm in medicine, the 1st thing ever happen to me was, i'm in a middle of a dying patient. Subhanallah. The first experience..seeing the patient's family reciting yasin, helping out him reciting kalimah syahadah. Seeing those sad eyes..overflow with tears..only Allah know's how it feels. Patient having sepsis and he signed the consent to stop all the treatment.. I was there for wad orientation. And, suddenly, the patient's family rush to me and my friends, asking help from the doctor, the pulse, the heart rate was irgular. At that moment, the only thing came into my mind, is only, ya Allah, please give them strength. Please ease his journey. I couldn't bear that kind of situation, i might burst into tears. I called my mum, and she comforts me. Thanks mummy. I'm emotional,yes.i admit it. I have a very soft heart that i might burst into tears in any condition. Cengeng perhaps? Might be associated with my status as the youngest of all. But, a miracle did happen today. There's one uncle, i beleve he is one of the patient's family member. He walked toward me and some of my collegues. The thing is that, whatever he said gives a lot of impact to my day, and it gives a lot of spiritual effect on myself. I start to believe, this is what been destined for me. He gives advice. Well people, not everyone was born in a muslim family. I'm thankful that Allah gives me that opportunity. Being a doctor, my mum said, is like perantara between us and Allah. The first person to touch you when ur delivered in this world is doctor. And, the person that touch u for the last time, during post mortem will also be a doctor. Years back, when our prophet Nabi Muhammad SAW is alive, remember there's one story about how the malaikat does a surgery to wash and purify our Nabi's heart. For each step, they use Al Quran along, so that the procedures wont hurt our beloved prophet. Pakcik said to us, we are lucky, bcoz we have Allah, we have Quran. Others don't. We can do everything, but the one that heal us, the only one that may help us is Allah. We are nothing people. We have nothing. Everything belongs to Allah. He said, learn and buy islamic books for medicine, learn how to treat people. Do all the procedures with selawat and doa. Thats our perisai. Thats our m16. Pakcik also remind us, as we're going to be the first to touch the baby. Say alhamdulillah, thankyou Allah for helping me deliver this baby, talk to the baby, iqamat or even azan the baby, let the baby hears the good of Islam, let the baby lsten to kalimah Allah, the first moment they ever entered the world. Show to them, show to the non muslim that Islam is a great way, by being a muslim, show them we are great doctors. This is one way of dakwah.dakwah is not only by giving ceramah, and everything. By our good deeds. Whatever we does, that is how we deliver to theothers how Islam is all about. Ya Allah. I believe, that pakcik was sent by Him, to me to make me understand, what is my amanah. What is my responsibility to the world. When im in my mummy's womb, when im not yet here in this world, i believed that i've make a promise with Allah, i'll be a muslim doctor, a good one, and when i successfully done with my job, that is the moment i'll go back to Allah, and i'll happily report to Him what i did in my days as His khalifah in this world. People, being a medical student, being a doctor or even nurses etc etc. Whoever we are, in whatever profession we are, we have our own responsibilities. I did hesitate in what i'm doing right now, am i going to be a doctor, do i want to be a doctor.but now, i know i have the answers. I want to be a doctor!! I really3 want to be a doctor. InsyaAllah. The journey might be tough.but here i am. I'll take the responsibility, and i'll do my very best. Do pray for me people.may Allah bless everyone too. Do good to people even u'll get hurt for doing that Do it because u want to do it.sincerity is really important. I hope things going smooth after this.amin. Good day people.tomorrow hopefully is a better day for me.