Anti-social / anti-lelaki

Assalamualaikum WBT n hello bloggie

Bloggie. Saya xtau apa yg sy buat ni salah or what. Huhu. Tapi niat sy buat ni sbb sy mmg janji pd diri saya. N sy janji pd Allah utk berubah kearah yg lebih baik. Firstly, dlm hidup sy sepanjang 22 tahun ni, sy penah betul2 berchenta skali kot. Yg crush2 atau lain2 tu xkire la. Yg serious tu skali je. And lama jugak la sy ngn dia. Almost 4/5 yrs. Mmg r/ship tu bermula dgn kwn then tanpa sedar tersuka dia. Tapi. Hbungan tu xpernah happy atau membawa sy jd aomeone yg better. Disebabkan berchenta sebelum usia yg sepatutnya, sy slalu depressed and berfikir dgn sgt xmatang. Jadi, kesimpulan sy utk relationship sebelum kahwin adalah VERY BAD.

Justeru, disebabkan oleh itu, saya pn semakin kurang bergaul dgn lelaki, sy buang sikap bls msg lelaki yg xde kaitan kerja. Since then, sy hanya msg lelaki apabila perlu dan ada kerja. Xde msg siapa2 skdr nk sembang kosong. I have no intention towards guys anymore.

Recently, ade someone from my past msg, and saja nk brtanye khabar. I know its rude but I din reply his msg, and it ends up dia panggil sy sombong. Lastly, sy gather la courage n say that bkn niat nk menyombong, tp sy mmg xreply msg yg xberkenaan. I know he feel offended bla3 tapi what can I do? Rase bsalah la jugak. Tapi, since he's not someone close, I just shut my eyes off n forget. Kalau dia nk remove fren ke hape ke its up to him la kan. I dun mind. Walaupun rase bsalah, tapi sy buat ats dasar janji yg sy dh buat. So I hope Allah wil forgive me for doing such thing and make me istiqamah in whatever I do.

Ya Allah, the only thing I pray and hope is to get ur blessing, and I hope u'll grant me with someone who can guide me once I'm ready. Tq Allah ;)

assalamualaikum WBT.. hye3 bloggieeeee ^^

bloggie.. ni gambar unofficial la utk MEP kali ni :)

btw kan bloggie. bdk multimedia si paan ni mmg nk kne babap tau

cube tgk eja nama ai salah. sbb tula kata unofficial

sbb dia kne betulkan balik.muehehehe :DDD

bloggie..

nak mengadu domba boleh x?

huhuhuhu..

bloggieee..

saya tahu, xsemua org enthusiastic mcm saya

saya tahu xsemua org energetic and bersemangat waja mcm saya.

tapi bloggie.can't they actually think of others instead of thinking about themselves more?

bukan dia je nak study

i do too..i need my study time too!

ape la salahnye kalau keje dalam kumpulan, buat sama2 kan?

tapi bloggie.

saya juga faham. ni la purpose of PPD..

kat sini la kita belajar.. mcm mana nk jd leader

how to manage the diversity.. how to cope with different2 kind of people in a group.

well bloggie..

bukan senang.. tapi alhamdulillah.. things goes well.

and i really hope this time punye charity event will come true..

and i really hope we manage to get things done :)

bloggieeeeee...

ok.enough of babbling..ni sume penangan visit PPD under posting psikiatri

huhuhuhuhu...

bloggieeeeee...

saya bahagia sangat sbb Allah bantu banyak sgt kali ni

dari segi buat kerja

dari segi mengawal emosi

banyak la Allah bantu ^^ alhamdulillah. praise to Allah :)

and now, utk keje MEP je..

saya dah siapkan fail2 portfolio MEP

takwim MEP pon dah siap

minit mesyuarat.. bla3..

cop MEP je tinggal skrg. nanti kan bila dah siap cop, ai tayang2 kat u eh bloggie ;) hehehe :D

p/s: saya blur @@

my developement

assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..

hyeeee!!!

bloggie. harini dengan semalam tangan saya sgt gatal

CWU xsiap kne hantar esok

pastu reflective writing xsiap lagi jugak.hahahaha

tapi, tangan dok gatal scroll down gambar lama2..

hehehe..bloggieeeeeeee

sile la tgk how i developed in this 5 years.

2008 ni masa tgh matriks lagi

sumpah innocent gile muka.hahahahaha

mcm kanak2 ribena beri yg baru belajar. hehehe

then, masuk 2011, masa ni masih lg maintain kurus..

berat pon xla tinggi mana..

masa ni boleh tahan cute la jugak.. masa sweet2 lagi..

time ni still lg dengan my ex.. 

which kalau xsilap 3months after that kitorang break up for real

haha. biasela kanak2 remaja yg baru nk membesar..

cinta monyet yg xke mana pon sebenarnye

menyesal pon ade berchenta2 dulu

tapi nk buat cmne, xmatang lagi time tu @@

pastu. after break up dgn my ex around dec 2011 kot

masa tu mmg xpernah kembali semula mcm dlu2 la..

agaknye stress.depress ke ape tah

makan la dgn excessively =PPP

oh no!!! and u can see how i transform into a chubby gurl

uwaaaa..mcm monster inc je tgk.hahahaha

nak naik berat senang gile weh. within 2 months kot, aku naik almost 10-15kg.

hahahaha. gile x gile penangan break up =PPP

pastu berat tu makin lama makin teruk..

ke'chubby'an makin melampau sampai sume tegur aku bulat nak mati

hahaha. nak buat cmne

bukan aku mintak. salahkan hormon pleaseeeee ;)

pastu sekarang ni dah pertengahan 2013

masih lagi sama mcm yg 2012 tu

cuma adela turun sikit2.

start last week baru berusaha sungguh2 nak loose weight

xsanggup ah sume baju lama2 xleh pakai

seteressssss!

and alhamdulillah, turun dah 3 kg sekarang..

bukan senang nak shed off sume lemak2 yg baru terkumpul

since dia baru setahun, mungkin belum tepu lagi la kot

so harapnye sempatla nak shed off sikit before raya.

HEHEHE :D

pray for me eyyyyyy ;)

and risq, please, BE DETERMINE!

i wanna my old self back. amin :)

may Allah ease.

maksu vs muhaymin

hahahaha..

poyo xpoyo dah banyak pulak post aku hari ni =PPP

eh.pipi kitorang sama kan? ;) hehehe

i am lost :(

bad things happen when u stay alone :(

i hate staying alone in room.

that's why when i'm home, i'll open up the door, because i really hate staying in a closed and unhappy room.

i hate quietness!

i hate everything that is lonely.. and i don't like being alone

maybe that is why i'm joining lotssss of programs and being in an organization

because, eventhough i'm not really good at it

but at least, i can meet people

even i'm the introvert type

at least i can see people around me.

is it weird?

am i weird?

but what do i care. as long as i'm happy.

don't blame before you think ^^

eheh. assalamualaikum WBT bloggie.

well bloggie. harini bukan la nk menghukum sape2. tapi ternampak satu post ni dkt FB

hello bro! kalau saya xpernah masuk psychiatry nye posting

mungkin sy pon setuju.

jadi, sebelum nak blame sape2, tolong buat research. tq!

sume org tak tahu, penyakit mental bukan hanya GILA!

bkn nye cakap sorg2 je..

banyak sangat jenis penyakit mental

and 1 of it is eating disorder..

so, kalau masalah anorexia/bulimia/excessive eating/obesiti

sume tu sebenarnya termasuk dalam penyakit MENTAL

ingat MENTAL tu gila je ke?

huishhhhh.. geram dgn pemikiran sempit org2 ni sume

tapi betul jugak, kalau dah benci tu, sume benda nampak busuk

kalau xsuka surat khabar tu, mula la nak MENGUTUK je.

org srat khabar bukannye xeducated la bro!

diorang mesti la buat research dulu

and u mister, please, don't judge and simply blame people ;)

well. ni dah masuk kes emotional

maaf bro!

xde niat nak blame, walaupun sebenarnye geram ;)

p/s: don't speak if u don't know. tq ^^

a beautiful mind :)

Assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..

hyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

do u wanna know what happen to a schizo patient?

let's watch this awesome movie.

let's get to know them

let understand them..

they are just a bit unlucky to have the disease

but as a normal human being

let's help them. let's guide them

don't thro them away.. because they're soooo confuse.

they don't even know that all those hallucination & delusion of theirs

are actually did not exists at all..

and. i would emphasize that to u

do not sigmatized them! do not judge them!

they are human being tooo. guide them and make them feel accepted.

because, everyone belongs in this world.

insyaAllah.

may Allah bless all my lovely schizo patient.amin :)

3 tahun

Assalamualaikum WBT bloggie

Ya Allah! How time flies..

Do u even realize that u've already 3 years old bloggie?

Macam xpercaya pon ade.

Dulu blog ni tercipta after diri rasa sgt miserable lepas kne reseat paper masa 1st year

And bloggie jugakla yg tgk kejatuhan aku

Masa dr cakap, kne repeat year

And now, bloggie, finally dah sampai 4th year dah pun

Ya Allah, macam xpercaya sangat2.

Subhanallah! Thank you so much Allah!

I've never thought u will exists for this long

seeing how i grew up from nobody

From a childish person, into a young adult 

A young woman, and a future doctor in few year time.

I just donno what to say bloggie

I just hope u'll bear with me this few years 

InsyaAllah bloggie.

Come and grad with me

Come and grow old with me ok?

InsyaAllah...