reminding self :)

assalamualaikum WBT and hyeeeeeee!

eh bloggie. it seems like ages, but still within few months kan?

holaaaa bloggie! well.this post is just to remind myself

why? and for what reason that i wanna be a doctor ;)

well bloggie. as u know, i am not the one that choose to be a doctor at first

it was choosen by my family, to be exact my daddy's hope

when i finished up my matrics, i got an opportunity to pursue my study overseas in UK

in bachelor of pure maths, which is my fav subject since years ago

even in matrics, i managed to get full marks for one of the exam

however, Allah is the Almighty.

we can plan, but HE knows the best for us.

well, when my dad knew that i also got the offer from UKM to be a medical doctor

he was so excited and happy

besides, he also ask me to just ignore the UK offer.

If i were to go to UK, i'll spent about 3 years there and of course when i return, i'll be placed as lecturer in any matriculation in Malaysia.

but then, even it saddened me, but finally, i trust in my instinct to continue my journey

and decided to be a medical doctor.

well, as the journey started, i almost feel like dying

as biology is not my fav subject at all!

and of course during my first yr, i have to repeat the year all over again

which at that moment, i really2 regret it so much, and keep on blaming myself

for not choosing what i really2 want

but then, as years goes by

and now finally i almost finished 65% of my journey

and only left 1 and 1/2 years to continue.

even the starting is not that good, but finally at this moment

i finally can breathe and i'm sooo happy with what i have now.

people. ever since i'm in primary school

if anybody does ask me, what is my ambition?

i would say that my ambition is to be a prof. dr =PPP

and i still remember how weird their faces are when i said that

well, at that time, my only concern is i want my name to be as long as it can be.

HAHAHAHAH =PPP

Prof. Dr. Risq Atiqah Munirah bt Mohamed Mustafa

that is just my dream.

even now, i still feel the urge to get that title,

one fine day insyaAllah people ;)

and now. i am soooo obsessed with my psychiatry posting

well you know, i just discovered that

from all my posting before,

this is what suit me the most, and make my life happier

the satisfaction that i feel when people coming in looking very miserable

and when the dr treats them, they live their life happily

that is my aim

that is my goal!

well people. i just discovered that i always put someone that i really love

way ahead of me

because, last time when i went to pulau perhentian,

i still remember when i only have few ringgits in my wallet

the only thing that came into my mind

is to buy my parent and my family souvenir

and i didn't get any for myself @@

that's how i am

and i know, psychiatry will be the best for me

because i love to see people smiling

and become happy when they see us

even, i do really love to read the psychiatry books compared to other medical book

and i really hope to be like one of my specialist.

my hope and my dream

is to be a geriatric or children/adolescent psychiatrist

and, my target for this posting 

is to get an A for the posting

i really2 want that! insyaAllah ^^

p/s: ok. enough mumbling ;) hehehe.

3rd monthday :)

Assalamualaikum WBT bloggieeee..

eh? dah sebulan lebih xhapdate ehh? =PPP sorry la bloggie. i've been sooooo busy this month

kadang rase cam xcukup tanah nak buat sume bende

sobs.sobs.sobs.

sape suh apply jadi MEP kolej kan? =PP

anyway bloggie. this post is specially dedicated to my beloved nephew

the one and only at the moment

the one and only lil boy that always make me smile when i look at his pic in my phone

xjumpe awk, tgk gamba pon maksu rindu tau syg ;)

hehe.

baru faham ape perasaan org ade anak buah

kalau anak buah dah cmni, kalau anak sendiri? 

now u know why ur mummy & daddy so protective of u eyy risq?=PP

happy 3rd monthday my sayang..

really, maksu loves u soooo much! only Allah knows how excited i am to see u

even i am soooo busy this week

but since this is the only time i can sneak out from my posting

from my college work

i'll sacrifice some time to spend time with u

because maksu miss u sooo much!

my dear muhaymin.

maksu always pray that Allah will always take good care of u

and i really hope that u'll become a very3 good person 

successful person and of course, excellent muslim in the future ahead

my dear muhaymin,

ever since u were born, my family changed a lot

i guess it's true that when Allah's says that "anak adalah pintu rezeki"

ur daddy a.k.a my brother got his new job with almost 3times his last salary

at the moment as well, maksu is doing my best in medical school

u make maksu feels spirited 

maksu's desire to become a doctor shoot up whenever i see ur face

whenever maksu thinks of u sayang

and ur uncle (abg cik) is doing good too

i guess, u gives us so much happiness.

my dear muhaymin.
above all, maksu would like to say only this
HAPPY MONTHDAY SAYANG!
and remember that u will always have me
and i'll take care of u in the future insyaAllah :)
i loveeeeee you :)

i miss you :) bogoshipooo??

assalamualaikum WBT bloggie..

hye! hye! hye!
bloggie.. at this moment i am missing someone soooo much
i miss my dad sooo much that i dunno how to describe.
baru je hari selasa daddy pergi kursus, katanya khamis nak balik but then end up balik jumaat @@

so bloggie, why? kenapa rindu sgt dengan daddy?
walaupun daddy xdela rajin sgt, well, common la kan lelaki.
tapi bila daddy xde terasa sgt, sbb...

1) hari2 yg buang sampah bila penuh dekat rumah sampah siapa? daddy.
2) hari2 yg akan turun bawah tutup sume lampu make sure pintu berkunci sume siapa? daddy
3) hari2 yg akan bancuh milo & undurkan kereta utk mummy siapa? daddy
4) hari2 yg akan duk kat bawah bukak radio klasik nasional siapa? daddy
5) hari2 yg akan bukak sume tingkap and ikat langsir pukul 6.30 pg siapa? daddy

etc etc.. banyak sgt la nk cakap. entahla, masa daddy ada, xla terasa cmni..
tiba2 je rasa rindu.. daddy pon rindu jugak sbb tu tiap2 hari daddy call pagi2 tanya dah makan belum, makan ape harini, tengah buat apa tu? bangun pukul berapa? etc etc.. hahaha =PPPP

well,post ni sebenarnya sbb ada incident yg best jadi pagi tadi..
since daddy takde kat rumah ni,
masa 1st day mummy pergi sekolah xbreakfast sampai pedih perut..
so 2nd day ni, masa mummy bangun, kitorang sama2 turun bawah,
then masa mummy siap2, saya pon bancuhkan milo utk mummy,
pastu buat bekal roti planta sbb mummy kata nk bawak bekal.
lepas dah siapkan breakfast, saya pon gi la amik kereta kat tepi rumah sampah then undurkan utk mummy,
pendek kata harini tugas2 daddy telah diambil alih sepenuhnya oleh cik risq ^_^

so, apa yg menarik sgt harini? sebab ambil alih tugas daddy ke?
citenye camni, lepas mummy sarapan, masa salam cium tgn mummy,
mummy tiba2 cium tgn saya balik @@
hahahaha. that shows how mummy miss my dad!
sbb pagi2 mcm rutin gi keje salam cium tgn daddy, then daddy kiss dekat ubun2 ;)
pastu ape lagi, perli la mummy, "mak, uyah bukan bapakla =PPP"
then mummy blur2, "eh, mak cium tgn kamu ke? hahahaha"
mummy pun malu sendiri.hak3..

masa daddy call this morning, si tukang report ni pon cerita la, ape lagi daddy bantai gelak =PP
hehehe.mesti daddy pon rindu mummy.
semalam masa call, ckp kat daddy, "bapak, uyah rindu la, xde sape nak buang sampah"
pastu daddy balas, "ooo, kamu tinggal mak ngn bapak balik ukm takpe, haha"
hehehe.tapi siyesly semalam jiwang habis la, tatawu kenapa sedih betul bila teringat kat daddy.
lepas tu sempatla mengadu kata mummy tak breakfast pagi tadi sampai pedih perut.
lepas habis sembang ngn daddy, pass la tepon dkt mummy..

ohhh bloggie.. kalau nak tahu, mummy saya opposite dgn saya.
kalau sy kememeh, jiwang dan sebagainya, mak sy heartless, hati kering, ego etc etc
so masa mummy jawab phone tu, rasa mcm dlm filem, "haaa, knp? ape? ape? hahah"
punyela nk control macho tapi terlepas jugak gelak ye mummy, hehe :PP
tapi daddy dgn caringnye membebel kat mummy, pastu tanye la soalan lazim, makan ape sume.

in the end, konklusinya, saya dan mummy rindu daddy
walaupun daddy xreti express feeling dia sgt, tapi sy tahu daddy pon rindu kitorang
cemana nak tahu? kalau hari2 call smpai kadang2 2-3 kali tu daddy rindu la :PP
sbb masa kat kolej, kalau cuti lama2 then balik kolej, mesti daddy yg jadi tukang call hari2 =PP
bila tanye "bapak rindu uyah ke?" dia mesti gelak2 :PP pastu ckp rindula :PP
ngeeeee...

oh bloggie. dh malam dh ni ^^
cheongdamdong alice pon dah habes tengok.
best! nanti nak buat review la kalau rajin.

anyway i love this quote from that drama..

"Winston Churchill said this, an immature person says i love you because i need you, but mature person says i need you because i love you"

eheh.poyo tak? anyway, love will come to those who cherish it ^_^ insyaAllah.

Mencari yang hilang.

Assalamualaikum WBT bloggieee :)

Hyeeeee! Bloggie. Pernah x awak xnak fikir tentang sesuatu tapi tiba2 awk terfikir juga tanpa sebab?

Emmm.complicated kan?

Bloggie. Sy rase kan, kalau la kita pernah sakitkan hati seseorang sepatutnya kita malu nk tegur org tu lagi kan? Sbb kita tahu kita salah. Tapi kan bloggie. Tak semua org mcm tu. Tak semua org ade sifat yang sama.

Bukannya sy xnk maafkan org bloggie. Tapi setiap kali pun xpernah berubah, mcm mana sy nk ok kan? So,jalan paling mudah adalah buat tak tahu je. Tapi bloggie. Akhirnya sy yg merana sbb teringat semula.

Bloggie. How should I do this? I don't evrn want to think. But then, it always there. Making me feel uneasy. Heyyy u devil, please don't hasut2 my mind huh! U r just bad bcoz what u always wabt is to make me feel bad and tired. I hate it! Ahhhhh! This is stressfull.

Bloggie. I don't want to tell mummy. Later she'll be worried. So? Ummm. Stick to myself and ask Allah for help.. I hope so. I think I can do this bloggie :)

Barelysupermommy :)

Omoooo.bloggie! U know what. I am super duper impressed with dr halina's lil bella. She's only 18months,yet to be 2y/o but really talkative even I can understand whatever she's talking about..

Just sign in for keek and watch all her videos.superb people!

The best video was the one entitled finding bella. Lil b was like 3y/o kiddo, wandering around saying where are u bella. There u are. Haha! Cute likeeeee woaahhh! Uber cute and funny. Ain't it interesting people?

The best thing when small kiddo like her talks in english. Learning by mimicking her mom. Oh,I wish my daughter soon will be like her too! Heyyy, she's a doc right, insyaAllah, I can do it too. Ngeee ;) seeing bella is like looking at myself when I was a kid. I went to nursery at the age of 2y/o++ where I still carry my bottle around, playing with all the babies. I went to an english based nursery, hence since 3y/o I've started to talk in english maybe not so fluently. And I have been conversing in english since then even at my home. By 5, I can speak fluently and even stewardess and steward gave me goody bag when I travel back to my hometown in sarawak due to my talkativeness with them. Suprisingly, I was talking in english my mum said. Woahhh risq! Impressive huh?

However, when I was in standard 6, my indian english teacher was really2 emmmm.how should I say.. cruel? She always gave us malay student such a low marks and if I'm not mistaken the highest I got for english that tine was 50. Even for upsr trial exam I got 4a 1c and the c was english! But then, I still managed to get 5a's in upsr. And yeah teacher, I am not that bad! Huhu.

That's the reason being why I am sooo not into english now. She's making my confidence level drop day by day, and now, I rarely speak in english.. vocab? Oh noo! Disaster..

Never mind, mari memartabatkan bahasa melayu. Bahasa melayu bahasa kita :ppppp

Ok.finally.enjoyyyy. c u then. Tgk link bella ni ye ;)

Finding #Bella http://www.keek.com/!veKCbab

being a maksu :)

hye! assalamualaikum WBT bloggie :)))))

bloggie.cube tgk dkt tepi, timeframe menunjukkan bahawa awk dh berusia hampir 3 tahun tau! ^^

hehehe.saya bangge dengan awk

even ada ups and down

kejap private kejap open

akhirnya awk ttp bertahan! yeay! alhamdulillah ^^

bloggie.. well after those years.

now finally i am a maksu ^^ alhamdulillah. praise to Allah.

well. above is my very first nephew. bam3 gileeee kan?

so many expression. so many weird faces

pipi bambam nak ikut maksu ye sayang? ^^

btw, my nephew's name, as stated Muhammad Abdul Muhaymin bin Mohd Zulikram.

panjang enough? naaaa.. not yet :PPP

sungguh la xpaham kenapa letak nama baby panjang2

nanti karang dia nk tulis nama pon susah.hahaha :PPP

tapi pon, syukur sgt2, finally my sis in law dah habes pantang.

syukur sbb finally Allah granted her wish, in fact everyone's wish for her to get a baby.

muhaymin came into our life giving us a lot of hope

and the best thing is that, he was born on 23rd February 2013.

Well, it is not 23rd March but still a month difference with me

kalau sama la kan, i will be the happiest maksu ever.hahaha :PP

anywho. i've learnt a lot about being a mother. not because i am a mother

but seeing how my sis in law struggling to survive being newbie mummy

sometimes the milk is not enough, sometimes the baby have bloated tummy

how disaster it will be when muhaymin "mengamuk"

ohhhh myyy! total disaster.

everyone sweats.. even my mum can't handle him.haha.

muhaymin.muhaymin.

naughty boy huh? never mind, maksu still loves you.

there's still some dilemma about being a maksu

i just don't know what should i address myself with him

maksu is like sooooo old :PPP haha.

aunty wayyyy to modern :P

and. in bidayuh aunty will be called wawak/tuwak.

in my father's side, aunty for paternal side will be called amay.

so bloggie. which one's the best?

maksu uyah

aunty su/ aunty uyah

wawak uyah/ tuwak yah

amay uyah?

dilemma.dilemma.

never mind, there's still time to decide before my dearest muhaymin start talking.

even now pon he already start wek.wek.wek.ah.ah.ah

maybe after 3-4 months he can already bubbling.

can't wait to see him grow up <3 p="">

p/s: muhaymin.maksu uyah loves u very much.muah.muah :D

Comel :)

Alahai.tadi dok tgk video u tube cn blue-love light. Comelnyeeee..

Hahaha.ak ni patah hati sgt ke ape ke tatawu la tp bile dgr lagu ni rase cm comel tp xde sape yg blh dibayang dlm minda @@ hahaha. I guess I have no crush lagi pd sape2. Hahaha. Is it bad or is it good?^^ takpolah. Yg penting jgn pening2 kan kepala and enjoy my single life :) lgpun ak rasa Allah nak jaga aku. Ngeee.

Oh.sila la enjoy lagu love light ye. Lirik dia comellllll bangettttt :)



english translation love light song :)

when i look at you my face gets red
when i see you my heart goes thump thump
i talk with shyness like a kid
when i look at you i just smile out of nowhere
like a fool I keep doing that
I think love came to me

You’re the president of my heart
You’re my chests’ star embroider
I’m Genie for you girl
You make me stop breathing
whatever you want
because i love you
There’s no reason for my love you know

you’re a darling
you’re more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and you’re beautiful even when i look at you
you’re my love light

when i see you i feel like im up on the clouds
it may be immature but i keep doing this
i tihnk love came to me

you’re a darling
you’re more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my very own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and you’re beautiful even when i look at you
you’re my love light

you’re lovely
you’re more blinding than the sunlight up in that sky
you shine the dark places inside my heart
my own love light

i love you lovely
even if i close my eyes i see you
looking at you like this
you’re still blinding even when i see you
you’re my love light

p/s: tak ke sweet namenye kalau dah maksud lagu ni macam ni :PPPP

Happy birthday uyah ^^

Ngeeeee.. happy 22nd birthday uyahhhhhhh <3
Errr.tak tau nak react ape. Adeh.
Next year gonna be the best time sbb my birthday on 23rd and I am 23 years old.hehehe.. errr.kawen time tu aci x? Ahahahaha :ppp time tu nk grad dah so kire aci la kn.ehehehe :D
Ok bloggie.
Matlamat nak senarai banyak2.
Tapi yg paling utama. Baharap agar aku akan jadi manusia yg berguna dan muslimah yg solehah. Moga2 iman makin bertambah.amin.amin :)
Target kali ni pasti dan insyaAllah akn terlaksana.sbb I am entering marriage age punye zone dah.. takleh tangguh2 ;)
Ok bloggie.pray for me and wish me luck.. may Allah sent me a great muslim guy to guide me through the journey.amin :)